Life's sucks.

All I wanted to post today won't make you feel better reading my blog. There's this one thing that I wanna clarify and speak out for myself.

I don't get it why you're being so unreasonable suddenly. Since the start of it you didn't reply my message just because you got yourself into a relationship? (Which I thought if that until you explain). That's what makes me angry about. Out of a sudden, the twitter issues which I don't know what's wrong but you insist it's the twitter's problems, so fine? I called and we explained, issues closed.

I admit I wasn't even intentionally log in to your twitter account, it's just the phone history. I immediately sign off from it i swear. I know whats privacy. But who knows I will see people complaining about me for so long while you tell me it's about her own friends? Okay then? I accepted that? However, I just find it strange for her to follow me for so long and stalking my accounts with all your friends. Liking my pictures when I don't know who they are but just knowing they are your friends? So I initiated to ask her to stop following me when there's no point for her to follow me at first anyway?

She got her friends issues? I not sure? Or maybe just you looking for an excuse to entertain me? So I can't have my friendship problem? I can't post on Facebook? On twitter? You're just being unreasonable. Stop saying I'm assuming too much. Since our relationship, it's not only me, I'm assuming, but you did that too. Don't use that as an excuse to explain my wrong. Every girls will do that, just wait and see, that's what I can say.

I thought everything settled after that day, but I think I thought another way round. I thought when we stop all interactions means no more communication and arguments. But why are you still posting mean and judgemental posts on your Facebook? I swear when I say I stop I really stopped. What's the problem with you again? Huh, Adam Ang? What's wrong with you complaining about me? Now, what can I say? I'm so disappointed on you too. You might be just thinking at her point if view? I not sure.

Think from my view? You as a friend who really understand me, just went missing after you found yourself a girlfriend. How would I feel? Irritated. After explaining we came to neutral feelings and also acceptance. But I just don't get it why all your friends are like following me from the back? And I don't feel secure for her to know everything that's happening on me when it don't involve her and it causes me to dislike her more. Isn't it better for us just not to follow anyone? I encourage her just to unfollow me and everything will just end eventually right? Settling my friends' issues, posting for my friend on Facebook, but I saw you commenting on me? And yet it's so obvious it's about me. I don't need to assume, use my eyes I can see. Adam you're being a ... to comment on me negatively when I did not post anything about you. Reflect on yourself, why will I wanna continue an argument when I don't even meet you guys anymore? Is there a need of it? I thought everything solved? What's with you continuing all this? And yet you said I'm childish? I'm trying to get all of us some peace and now you create more for us. I tried to reply your post on Facebook just to see are you trying to talk about me. So yup, you're. What's with all these? You're not tired?

I admit I really don't like her since long ago and you knew it. I wished you when you told me your relationship. What do you expect more from me? Don't hate her anymore? When I dislike her for other reasons? Sending you flowers to wish you guys last long? Eh? And I swear I didn't post anything about her on any if my social network until the day I saw her tweets. Get this right, except for the previous hatred towards her (and I think she don't give a fuck) I only keep it to myself. You're just being unreasonably commenting in me out of a sudden when I'm not even bad mouthing you. Do I need to tell you my friends stories for you to match up with my statuses so you can feel safer in I'm not talking about you at all. (Except for those I'm trying to reply you) think of it, who's being more childish and unreasonable now. Maybe time passes, we don't understand each other anymore. But after these few days, you've changed too? Becoming into someone who can't think as mature as before, someone who can solve a problem for your girlfriend. Good luck with my life? I'm always good without you I can say, good luck with yours too.

Meichyi.

The little misses of me.

If you know me well, you will know how much I miss resting myself on your shoulder beside your neck and under your ears. That's my place. However, now placing my head on that place makes me afraid that I will cry because touching the ear and the neck will make you feel uncomfortable.

#100factsaboutme

#1 My study table is always messy until I have the mood to chiong for my exams #2 I love everyone beside me for a reason -they treat me well too. #3 I quarrel with my family members always, but anyone try to bully, I will revenge like small lil girl do #4 I used to say iPhone is not good, but I'm using now. #5 My later always equal to never. #6 My stomach will always have butterflies when I'm nervous #7 I cannot stand VERY bitchy people #8 I hate girls that always try to being close to my boy #9 I'm not a quiet person, I will die if I don't talk. #10 I cannot eat fish by myself. #11 I always thought my boyfriend will be vvv handsome, but... #12 AdamAng is always the person I will look for when anything happens #13 I don't like to talk on the phone. so when i call you, it's urgent! #14 I will always like to receive small notes or love msg for ppl #15 I hope my boy is always the closer of mine #16 I love surprise, if it didn't scare me off. #17 I love ppl telling where there are so I no need to worry much. #18 Hug is always the one I need when I'm sad. #19 I like loooong messages! Especially good night msges from my loves one. #20 I only saved MSG from AdamAng, and yeap, its more than 5000 #21 I CANNOT stand one word replies like "ok" "lol" or "zzz" i rather you not reply me. #22 I sleep rather than helping my mom when I got nothing to do. #23 I love hugs!!!!!!!!!! They always make me feel better! #24 I'm lazy and I'm fat #25 I can study well, but always get distracted #26 I dislike to cry, but I'm not strong enough to face problems without tears. #27 I don't like my sis. But when people bully my sis (apart from me), i wish i can crush them like how i kill ants. #28 I cannot stand ppl lie on me, back stabs, or even just say something bad about me. #29 I dislike girls that being nice to only boys. #30 I always wish I can read people's mind. #31 I would love to visit different countries during spring, autumn and winter before world ends #32 I can remember things well, like to smell on my boy's shirts #33 I hate ppl don't respect me, or left out me. #34 I dislike my boy talking to me with unwillingly tone. #35 I hate ppl calling me names, except names that being created by my sis or my boy. #36 I don't like to watch horror movie unless it's being watch with my sis or my love ones. #37 I always touch my stomach for no reason. #38 I like to tie my hair under a towel after I bathe #39 I don't like to be a substitute of anyone ( nobody likes) #40 I don't like people talking about secrets in front of me, if you don't want me to know, don't even bring it up #41 I like to travel to Malaysia cause it's the only place that I know I'm having holidays #42 I'm always emo, but except when I'm taking to my boy #43 I always help ppl to settle problems, but when its on me, I dk how. #44 I don't have good English ability, so I always express myself in Chinese #45 I'm always caring for ppl cause I thought that will care for me too #46 I can be nice to my classmates, but due to something, it makes me hate the class for long, until now. #47 I'm always tempted in doing things that I cannot be done. #48 I talk to my mum about almost everything, except love stuff. #49 I always hold on to my phone, cause I know someone will find me anytime. #50 I can cry easily, just like listening to Jay Chou's songs #51 I can understand Chinese in some other way ppl around me cannot. LOL #52 I prefer to feel sad alone, i just need a listening ear. #53 I like to shop, but only with my mom and sis #54 I can spend almost everything on me just for him #55 I can be that stupid to trust everything anyone says #56 I get jealous easily, den mood swing, den back to normal just from a hug he gives from MSG. #57 I like to drink green tea, black tea, red tea, but Chinese tea not really #58 I don't feel confident in myself, so please do tell me I'm good if I really did well #59 I always hope to have someone to understand me when I don't talk. #60 I can always be so close to my friends' boyfriend #61 I like to watch drama whole day without ppl disturbing #62 I can hold a person hand for long without losing it .LOL #63 I hope ppl around me feel relax and comfortable being with me #64 I really love my boy, AdamAng #65 I can talk in 2 diff way and this is not two-faced. #66 I always hope to be the best girlfriend of his #67 I only have a best friend that understand and accept me for everything, pandamun #68 No matter what, I will always try to know everything of my best friend. #69 I used to ".." instead of "." in texts #70 I like school events actually, but without a bonding class, its exception #71 I don't speak vulgarities, unless its texts #72 I can/like drink, but daddy don't allows #73 I only can sing when I'm alone in de washroom #74 I used to like to visit my friends suddenly. #75 I like to sit in my boy's car. #76 I'm not a stalker, but sometimes stuffs that I don't now wanna see always appear when I enter some one's page #77 I still can remember the feeling in my boy's arm, it's warm. #78 I always scold my sister being so silly when shes in love, but until it happens on me, I feel my childishness #79 I can write nice and beautiful sentences/essays to ppl I love much #80 I can't run for long, but frankly, I like to run. #81 I have low blood pressure, but whenever I look for doctor, I'm always that hyper till doctor will say I have normal blood pressure #82 I used to smile when I'm chatting with my boy on the phone. #83 I text my dad using Chinese, my sis in English and my mom in Malay. #84 I can say meaningful things in Chinese #85 I like children, when they are cute. LOL #86 I love to do nothing with family members, just laugh and joke around #87 I always think that I can save money but end up I can use all my saving to buy a shoe. #88 I know my negative thoughts are bad. #89 I like 7 and 11 LOL #90 I love Europe, but after knowing the History, I love them much more. #91 I will cry when I know the that someone hates me #92 I will be vvv happy when I know someone smiles because of me #93 1 min for me is like 1 hour or year #94 Twitter and Facebook are so irritating but I go everyday #95 I dont like to drink water, but to remind my boy, I drink alot everyday #96 I treat my boy as the most importatn person better than my sis LOL #97 I dont love pink, it just happens to be everything beside me is pink in colour #98 I can spend hours just stoning #99 I can accompany ppl and do nothing #100 Im done, spending few hours on this.

Bubbles feelings

Dear boy, Get to know this page, mean you really know me well. I had been confusing and annoyed by the problems between us recently. What happened between us nowadays? From a boy that understands me well, without asking anything you will definitely know what I'm thinking and what I want. I get it enough, it's out of my limitation. I want you back. I REALLY DO. We know which others for years, didnt stop chatting everyday, thought you're the most important ones in my life. As a friend, I always thought that you are being super nice to me. But why is it getting far and far away when we are in a relationship? It's only 3 months and we having this kind of problems. Yes you told Mikki that I'm the person that you wanna stay with forever, yes I do. But I just dont get it why can you being so calm when I said I wanna stop the conversation for 1 week and you can try being single for a week. Wow, shows that you're sick of me isnt it? I told you that you're making me rely on you too much, and yet you still believe that I can stand without you for a week? Yea being frank, I'm getting more and more upset, disappointed, regretting maybe? But I dont wanna lose you. What can I DO? To make you know that I can live without you so muc? I love you, that dont wanna lose you so much. I give you freedom, going clubbing, which girl can accept her boyfriend go clubbing till 4 or 5 only reach home. I tried so much to tolerate to forgive and forget, cause I know I trust you. For being a good boyfriend. Sweet talks of yours always make me think much. Always found out you're chatting with me about htis and Facebook asking ppl to play lap dancing on you? What's this. Telling ppl Im not a passed girlfriend. Not a good one? Than what's the point of being together? I dont wanna break, just like you told me you dont want too, but what is this? I m doing my part well and you are enjoying your young life outside?